Even miracles take a little time

Like I said... AGONIZING. I pestered the Disneyland Casting center AT LEAST once a week. I graduated hair school on September 27th 2013 (HOORAY!!)

And moved back to Logan with my parents. And then sat on the couch and wondered what to do with my life. For like. Two weeks. If not longer. I continued my Bath and Body Works job at the teeny tiny mall in Logan and although I loved working there, it was killing me not knowing whether I would even be there in the next 5 months. What if nothing ever opened up? So I decided to set a moving date and move regardless of if I had gotten a response.

A little side note: I got an interview for a job at the local newspaper and would have had the job if I hadn't been moving in January. I went home, slightly devastated but understanding of the situation. When I got home a girl that went to my high school announced on Facebook that she got into the college program. (I'll write a post specifically about the college program later) well that took the slight devastation to full devastation. I cried. I just felt like I wasn't getting there and everyone else was. Everyone I knew was getting into disney except me. I'm not gonna lie and say it didn't suck. 

Needless to say, I met a boy. and he will not be a part of this blog but I suppose he had a smidge of importance in my decision to cancel the move. I was set to move in January and even had roommates. But I called them about two weeks before and let them know I wasn't going to be there. Besides the boy, I actually had had a bad feeling about going. I felt like it wasn't the right time. And if anyone is feeling the same thing and is wondering why.. 

Don't question yourself!!!!! All miracles take a little time. And if you feel that's it not the time to audition, or move somewhere or even apply, don't stress yourself out in thinking you have to do it right now. I know that I felt dumb because I had already told everyone I was leaving and yada yada yah. But it's not about them it's about you. And your timing. And your life. And your dreams. 

Anyways. Rant over :). 

I got over everyone asking me why I was still in Logan and just went about ordinary life. I interviewed for the job at the local paper again and got it! I did this for hmmm about 3 months and in between that time my waiting list expired. One day at work I got on the disney careers website and saw a costuming position. Once again it wasn't a chef and it wasn't an engineer. But I can't even sew. And I applied anyways for kicks and giggles. It took longer this time and I ended up getting an interview about a month later. I was sooo excited!!! But after about 20 minutes my excitement was gone and I thought... Is this really what I wanna do? I can't sew and it's not really something I'm interested in. I don't even have the money to move right now! And the money for the trip is another factor. I ended up not going... I feel bad for even taking up time. And a lot of people will probably think of me as selfish and picky. But this is my journey and my life and it happened whether I like it or not. 

Everything happens for a reason! And even miracles take a little time...